Verse Roo‚

"the starlight"

when the storm is coming

when my body and mind are weaker

when yours are weaker

THE STARLIGHT is always shining in our sky

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"forever"

i think it will never happen

i could do something and i will do that someday

i'm thinking about that so maybe i can do that

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"sooner or lateri"

we will come closer

we will go farther

 

i must change something

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"i"

there is "i" here
there is only "i" here
i can do nothing
i can been done nothing

maybe i can do everything i wanna do now

 

"OMOI"

OMOI to you, which is always on my mind these days

is too heavy for you?

 

forever

PARHAPS everyone wants it?

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"a strong wind"

a strong wind's keeping me awake late at night
a strong wind's ...

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"when i call your name"



i'm weaker than when i was in your arms

now
what i wanna tell you is about

where you & i are
where you & i will go
what the figure of our love is
what the figure of our love will be


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"time to let her go"

maybe the time to let her go
now she is always on my mind
drinking eating smiling laughing talking looking


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"recently"

love, always on my mind
love, always at my sight

the distance's become much farther
the hearts've come much closer

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"as many as possible"

beer under the star
dear at my stare
tear felt at my ear
tear felt at your ear?

dear in the moonlight
bare hearts so tight



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"the sea"

here the sea's been so clear
the vivid color of blue green white etc.
while i see the sea, i can forget everything about ....

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"invisible"

my fate is invisible
my future is invisible

but nothing is impossible

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"rain"

rain's falling on me
it's keeping falling on me
i'm feeling it'll fall forever
but i'm not sure

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"distance"

i can see our distance so clearly
i know the distance between you and i
but this evening i got your mail
so many years've come back
i can even feel your touch

both of us were so young
but because of it, the pureness has been shining!
i believe...

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"memories"

a new year has come
but i've thought of my old memories


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"now i want something!"

i can go back or forward
my fate will take me either or both
but i want you anyhow and you can't never be with me
so i want something instead of you
am i a fool?
the stupid thing needs something!
something new which makes me happy

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"love poem"

i've left MY LOVEs on my way here for so many years
i can't even remember them clearly
but sometimes i dreamt them late at night
suddenly i got up in the darkness and couldn't sleep any more
now i'm looking back
i'm aware they've supported and made me

she's gone gone and become a member of them
i won't forget her
she was really my love who gave me many wonderful things
though i couldn't leave her nothing
and she smiled to me and said good-bye

please leave me holding my knees and looking up the sky
please leave me crying in the darkness
please leave me


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"cold wind"

the same cold wind blows me every winter
i want to say i don't care
but i get weaker and weaker because of the cold
the wind makes me cry every time
i am beaten and shed some tears every time

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"starlight"

she wanted a starlight
she searched the starlight in the clear sky next to me
i wanted to help her and said something about it and even looked up the sky with her
but we couldn't find the starlight she wanted
she's gone
i keep on seaching her starlight up up up in the sky


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"the last ......"

when is the last day?
is it in the past or in the future?
will everlasting love exsist forever?
padadoxes?
don't you need it?
i i i ... i don't care


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"the final words"

for you and for me
these are the final words

everyone wants something happy
you've wanted it
i've wanted it, too
but we can't get it together
it's because of me
i can't show you anything better
and i bring you some trouble
so don't look back
so don't think of me
of course you won't
i hope that now

by now i've said too many words to send you my love
so many words made it blur
but please remember i loved you
i loved you deeply

someday G'll make us smile together


PLEASE laugh at me, who can only say that

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"cool down"

i want something cool
something cool also makes me cool

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"happier"

you know the happier things
i know the happier things

you know the sadder things
i know the sadder things

we've separated but you!
please catch the happier things


"good bye"
i said to the first her, "good bye" and she's gone
i said to the second her, "good bye" and she's gone
i said to the third her, "good bye" and she's gone
i said to the fourth her, "good bye" and she's gone
i said to ,,,

i've said "good bye" over and over
but what's changed within me
nothing's changed
that's the reason i still stand alone
have i really wanted a light?
dear, i can say yes now

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"quietly"

you loved me quietly, she said
i didn't think so
if my quiet love could't reach her
all was our fate

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"Don't stop"

i won't stop any more as time will never stop
my heart's trying stop me at the same place where we were at that night
now you've gone because of the fate
i can't stop myself and i draw my stony legs step by step
please don't stop, dear
because i won't never stop

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"Typhoon"

the big typoon came to the islands
when the strong winds attracted me
i even thought i could fly into the air

when the big waves washed the shore violently
i even thought i could ride on the waves
and the typhoon's gone
i stand alone thinking of that typhoon


"Scream &Tears"

i screamed some
i shed tears some
my weakness could't stop me
now i sometimes scream
i sometimes shed tears
my weakness can't stop me now, too


"Full moon light, calm wave, you & the foolish one"

round round yellow moon shines in your eyes
clam waves bring us the tender breeze and sound
i look up the moon
you look up the moon, too


"Time makes them sink down to the bottom of my heart"

time is passing
time will never stop
so slowly, or so fast
time brings them all down to the bottom of my heart
where the sun and the moon never shine
the wind never blows
the stars never glitter
the grave full of my rage and sorrow and so on

"New Dawning"

i don't know my darkness can be broken
i don't know my weakness can be beaten
but i'm waiting for my own NEW DAWNING

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"autumn"

your voice's making my heart frozen
coming from the place so far so far so far so far so far
i don't wanna hear your voice
but it comes through my fingers to my ears

your figure's making me broken
being close around me
i don't wanna see your figure
but my eyes' following you

"love"

now i confess loudly
i need your love
i need your touch
but my finger can't never touch them
because of my want
my want of the sense is my nature
so my nature makes me far away far away far away from you
I have thought that i knew but i haven't, i confess


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"nothing"

i say nothing
i give nothing
i want nothing?
i leave nothing
i do nothing
nothing
the clouds will disappear
i will disappear leaving nothing
the sun will shine on you


"you"

you may hear the voices
the voices i can't hear
you are the only one
so please catch my voice


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"shine"

the sun is shining on me
i'm feeling the heat
the colours of the sun are fantastic this evening
when the wind is bleezing to me, i'll begin to shine


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"a new year"

i'm too late to say "a happy new year"

it's because of the happiness of working

i do something for what?

for what i believe i do for something

at least something will be born in someone's fate

now i want nothing from it


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"light"

i've lost the light for so long

now i'm still lost my way

i'm not sure how many people live their lives on thier ways

but i confess i've needed a ray of light for so long

i cannot find it anyway

so weak so confused

my heart and mind are getting lighter and lighter than the clouds

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"memories"

i've come up the steps somehow

so many steps

now i shout that i'm here alone by myself

no no no

no help no step

what i thought i didn't need is now making me alive

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i sometimes thought i would be a great one in my young days

no. my dream has been dead

because i was the one who could't do nothing

now nothing's changed

the wind blows me every winter

i get going crazy every time

i wanna do nothing

i wanna disappear from the globe

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i feel i am lonely

when i sit in front of TV and eat something at midnight

i'm eating something that i don't know who made it

i can cook something but the food is not a problem

i can't say  anything to complain about the taste

then my body and mind keep being ugly fat

so ugly that anyone keeps the distance to me

or do i?

i don't know whether i sellected it

a cat lying calmly to my touch tonight

will bite my fingers someday

will i be able to stand  alone?


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heat

the sun is burning

their eyes are searching a butterfly

cool

the sea is very clear blue


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headache

this headache makes me confused

do i really accept my death?

probably yes, i answer

but in front of me, lots of stars, clear sea water, hard shining sun, ,,,,,

certainly i am wasting the chances to enjoy my life

is it a sin to live like this?

that's a problem of mine


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"wrong"

am i going the wrong way?

is wrong life a long life?

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too tired so i've become a stone

i want nothing and only the silence makes my mind calm

too foolish so i've become a thorn

i want nobody and this feeling makes me crazy

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weak and small

i cannot go out of this sense yet

i want a ray of light shining my way

i am unstable

my feeling is being confused these days

in my car i feel myself wanting to scream every day!!!

sometimes i do

i shout something i can't remember now

but nothing changes and nothing will happen to me

you know it depends on me

i know i know but please don't say that so loudly

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weak, how weak we are!

only am i ?

everything's breaking me

do you feel the same?

fragile ,are you?

am i unique as my age?

i only have a space to expose myself

it may be a help or not

anyway i felt i was weak ,very weak

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where is my homeland?

i have been to only a few places

i'm looking for a place to live the rest of my life

now it is MIYAKOJIMA

but i'm not sure

something's trying to push my back to make me go to the unknown place

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long long time has passed since we separated

i've  been living my life anyway

sometimes looking back my way

i find nothing left

i am nothing but a son of the ancient parents

this is a footstep of mine

someday a ray of the sun will shine it

and all will explode themselves

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two in the sofa

i turned down the light

i kissed her the first and the second and more 

her lips and body seemed to tremble a little by my touch

or mine did ?

i took off her t-shirt

then her white skin

i kissed so many times as softly as possible

i felt her body reflecting our love

but only i thought it?

i might touch a core

she whispered something

my spirit ,mind ,heart ,future and body was on her

i was with her

while she were someone in her heart

why did she tell me?

why didn't i feel it?

it has passed many seasons

and i am the same silly one without something  

i am still here

i may need anyone who can make me alive

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long way very long way in front of you

maybe i passed the half of it

but nothing in my hand

so, so, so, that's the reason why i've been keeping doing that

power of the young is stronger than anything

the world will change in a better way

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a poet said poetry depends on  a sense of "we"

do i have it?

from the first word this is not a poem ,is it?

what is moving a human to do such a thing?

i don't know but i am a human doing it

someday  a star will start shining in the sky

soon the day will come

it will come soon to me leaving my mind here

i hear the voices saying "foolish ,silly ,worthless ,no good ,NG ,NG he is"

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i am only me

you are only you, too

i was born from the earth

you were born, too

i will die to heaven

you will die, too

what will remain on the earth?

there are many flowers on the ground (i like a sunflower)

someday a fire will come and burn all of them

there will be only our bones laughing at our fate

fate,,,,,,,

i need some help of alcohol


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so i am kohta existing in okinawa in 2001

something made me alive

so long ago my fathers and mothers lived on the earth in the space

i am on the same place

you, you, you, you, you, you, and you the same

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sunshine, cloud, wind, rain, air, heat ,,, around me

i always touch them

but  do i feel them as real things?

there are few persons doing it

i don't want to be a man like them

long long time ago i thought it, didn't i?

was i born to waste everything?

but but but BUT i live for something i don't know

and someone may need me for something,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

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i sometimes pursue the past

painful or painless

good time and bad time

happily or sadly or madly

i found myself wandering those times

but i still cannot find a purpose of my life

must i continue to live for anything?

are any purposes needed to my life?

one breeze brought me to my parents

and now the wind is blowing me who is 

working, eating, drinking, watching, crying, sleeping, dreaming, opening, writing, reading, thinking, feeling, growing, learning, teaching, talking, laughing, typing, looking, waking, washing, playing, wasting, using, singing cleaning and etc

but i have understood i did nothing

do any persons live for something?

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love? dream? father? mother? brother? future? earth? loneliness? happiness? desperation? beer! life! cheers! girls! fools! flood! fields! nobody! gods! water! reborn! sun&moon!

then will anything remain?

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someday someone will be next to me?

one morning will i say "we"?!

i don't know whether i wish or not

but she lives under this sky

probably too shy

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yes, actually i am a kind of the human

sleeping long, waking up late, drinking some coffee,

driving on the empty morning roads

working with the unique interesting worried kids

watching sunset, saying goodbye, eating some

drinking beeeeeeer heavily

sleeping on the tatami,

i live my life my life my empty life ,,,

YEAH!


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a heavy drunken night

there appeared a heavy drunken shadow next to me

it whispered to my ear

how silly you are

you're wasting your time

that's what i am

that's what i am, isn't it?